Constant Beginnings

I had such a great attitude-Yesterday. Today it is crap again. I just want to be done. I want my body back. I want to wear my "skinny" clothes and by skinny clothes, I mean before children skinny clothes. Yes, I've saved them all, although pieces will need replacing because I'll need a huge reward when I get to the point of wearing them again :) I want to jump into our new life as 5. I want to jump forward knowing that all is well, that all of these loose ends that are here now, will be gone soon and I want assurance that our girls will adjust with all the changes that are about to occur with open arms, happy faces and loving hearts. I want, I want, I want.... I had such a great attitude--yesterday. Somehow it was lost around bedtime last night. I shared this change with Chris. His response, "reset." If only it were that easy. It should be that easy. But obviously I am a complex person in a chaotic life. Nothing is easy. No decision is taken lightly. My Mo...

i am sort of freaking out about random things recently. freaking is probably a bit of an exaggeration, so perhaps anxiousness is more fitting... here they are: 1. i had all of our pics saved to my computer. before chris left, we got a mega external hard drive. i am seriously talking mega. i couldn't fill this sucker up if i took 100 photos everyday for the rest of my life. it has massive storage. however, the anxiousness is starting to rear its ugly head as visions of that thing crashing flashes through my mind. sooooo, i am thinking of moving all my files to an online storage company. anyone done this? the prices seem very reasonable, but i am concerned about the accessibility. i want to be able to pull a picture or two at a whim. 2. i turn 32 tomorrow. yikes. i don't feel old and i don't think i look it. in fact, most of my students--granted middle schoolers have no sense of age, which is probably why i love them so--think i am in my 20's. anyway, crazy to think th...