Constant Beginnings

We are still playing the game. The Waiting Game! I really, really dislike the game. However, to pass the time, we are also playing another game. This one is called, "let's plan out our lives as if we are going to this temporarily undisclosed location!" This game is so much more fun! We're winning this game. So far we have a preschool picked out for Mya, a school for Claire and a house  (or 2) for us all! Yippee. Oh, I found a potential job as well. I do so like this game much, much better ;) Now let's hope all this playing is for real! We are down to our final 22 days that this could drag out. Let's all think happy thoughts.

You'd think I'd be used to waiting. You'd think I'd have developed some patience by now. You'd think this whole game gets easier. You'd think I'd be less anxious. You'd think.....but NO! I stink at waiting. I hate not knowing. I hate the uncertainty of not being in control. I am going CRAZY! This game in particular refers to our next assignment. We developed our "list," checked it twice, revised it a few more and after thinking about some particulars, revised it once more. That list was sent and now we WAIT! Let's face it, the list is simply kindness shown by those in charge which allows us to THINK we have a say in this whole process, but when it comes right down to it, THEY will put us where they may. I am not a throw it in your face type of religious person, but I believe strongly that the ultimate decision of where we may go is up to God. I am okay with wherever it may be. I. JUST. WANT. TO. KNOW! NOW! This next assignment is a big one ...