Constant Beginnings

I had such a great attitude-Yesterday. Today it is crap again. I just want to be done. I want my body back. I want to wear my "skinny" clothes and by skinny clothes, I mean before children skinny clothes. Yes, I've saved them all, although pieces will need replacing because I'll need a huge reward when I get to the point of wearing them again :) I want to jump into our new life as 5. I want to jump forward knowing that all is well, that all of these loose ends that are here now, will be gone soon and I want assurance that our girls will adjust with all the changes that are about to occur with open arms, happy faces and loving hearts. I want, I want, I want.... I had such a great attitude--yesterday. Somehow it was lost around bedtime last night. I shared this change with Chris. His response, "reset." If only it were that easy. It should be that easy. But obviously I am a complex person in a chaotic life. Nothing is easy. No decision is taken lightly. My Mo...

I've shared on several occasions my constant, daily struggle to simply "be present." I came across this on my other sister's blog. It paints the picture better than I ever could. Kelly found this picture on Jennifer Hatmaker's blog. I actually read this blog too. Love her perspective on faith, love and children. She's an adoptive momma as well. I find inspiration in it all.  http://jenhatmaker.com/blog.htm

mya is so stinkin cute. i told her i wanted a pic and asked her to stand by the wall. she complied. it was awesome.  my loves. this picture melts my heart. really. it wipes away all the difficult times and fills me with pure happiness.  we ventured to church this morning. it was a different church than we attended when i visited in july. the congregation was mostly young couples, the nursery programs provided bibical discussions and the congregation was very outgoing. it was different. i am more comfortable in a traditional church setting and can easily adjust to a fairly contemporary worship, but this was VERY contemporary, much like you'd see from 700 club or something like another tele-evangalist type place. not sure i was 100% sold, but i am willing to try it again. i really wanted to find somewhere that claire would get a sunday school type experience. anyway, i snapped some pics of our beautiful kids. they were soooo cute.

Sleep. I love my sleep. I loved my sleep before children and even moreso now that I am deprived. However, we've been at my parents' house for 4 days now and I think I have gotten more sleep in those 4 days than I have in the past 3 years. All thanks to my awesome parents. Love them. Mya is sleeping in the one bedroom, while Claire and I are sleeping in another. My Mom has been grabbing Mya when she wakes in the morning. Claire and I have been sleeping in anywhere from 8 to sometimes 9 each day. I even have had a nap each day. It is heavenly. I feel pretty refreshed, although I have a lot on my mind. No word on the job yet, which I was expecting, but I am somewhat impatient. I've made my list of things to do if I should get the job and we decide to move to Korea. All in all, I am pretty prepared or at least as much as I can be being so far away from MA. Just wish I could snap my fingers and find out if I got the job, gather all my stuff from work, say the sucky good-byes, co...