Constant Beginnings

I had such a great attitude-Yesterday. Today it is crap again. I just want to be done. I want my body back. I want to wear my "skinny" clothes and by skinny clothes, I mean before children skinny clothes. Yes, I've saved them all, although pieces will need replacing because I'll need a huge reward when I get to the point of wearing them again :) I want to jump into our new life as 5. I want to jump forward knowing that all is well, that all of these loose ends that are here now, will be gone soon and I want assurance that our girls will adjust with all the changes that are about to occur with open arms, happy faces and loving hearts. I want, I want, I want.... I had such a great attitude--yesterday. Somehow it was lost around bedtime last night. I shared this change with Chris. His response, "reset." If only it were that easy. It should be that easy. But obviously I am a complex person in a chaotic life. Nothing is easy. No decision is taken lightly. My Mo...

I can't believe I've we've survived the last two months. They  have been purely crazy. I shared that we enrolled Mya in a new preschool program in August. Although it is truly amazing and EXACTLY what she needs, the schedule is less than desirable. Right now Chris and our friend, Erika have been taking turns dropping off the kiddos (Mya and her buddy Asa) at 8:15, then Erika (or sometimes me) picks them up at 2:00. We bring them to an FCC provider who is located at a neighboring village--about 10 minutes from our house where they stay until we are done with work. For Mya, it ends up to be about an hour or so. It is a huge pain as I then have to go pick her up, back track either back to base or home, get done with whatever I need, load up the car and take the kids to the next activity.  I've searched high and low for someone to help us. Someone to rescue us from this burden. Someone to simply pick up Mya and watch her for a few hours or even ...