good-byes stink

my dad called this morning. my grandma passed away early this morning. such a bittersweet passing. on the one hand, such sadness to think she is truly gone, but on the other, a passing filled with no pain/suffering but simply peace. the doctors were able to tap one lung on sunday, and the other on tuesday, which allowed her to breath more easily. they determined the cancer began in her ovaries and spread to her lungs. at least there is an answer to that question. my dad and his siblings were able to share a few days with their mom before she said good-bye. definitely a blessing. i am having some difficulty with the fact that i won't be able to attend her funeral and say good-bye as i am at the point in this pregnancy where flights just aren't allowed. i know she'd understand completely, but it is still doesn't sit well with me. i did have a nice visit with her on friday, so i do feel at peace with that part of things, but it is not the same as mourning with my entire family. i was thankfully able to do so during the passing of my other grandparents. all in all, another death is a hard pill to swallow regardless of the circumstances. the timing is never perfect. thanks for your thoughts and prayers. i know they mean alot to me as well as the rest of my family.