korea, korea

i feel like i am in a fog that i can't escape. several things have brought me to this feeling.
1. everyday feels the same. i wake up, go outside, sweat like i've worked out for hours, pray for some A/C and then chill out.
2. i miss my kiddos.
3. i have a to-do list a mile long that i can't even begin until i return to MA.
4. i miss my kiddos.
5. i hate the humidity.
6. i have been crying off and on most of the day.
7. oh---did i mention that i got the job? hence, the tears. (sorry, jess, lisa, lauren and alison--i'd have called, but this time difference thing is messed up)
8. i miss my kiddos and feel nervous for what is to come in the next month.
9. i have felt sick to my stomach most of the day.
10. i am so lucky that i get to coordinate this HUGE move all by myself while tending to 2 small children and a dog.
11. YIPPEE!!

Ok, now onto a written summary. Things have most definitely progressed quickly on the job front. I toured the school and visited with the principal yesterday, talked with the HR person last night, and was notified of a job offer this morning. Talk about hyperventilating. I guess I should be more careful what I wish for next time. Only kidding. I am very excited about this move, but I wish that I didn't have to coordinate and execute the entire thing on my own. It is overwhelming and far different than a typical PCS. Typically, you know of where you are going months in advance, so TMO can come get your things and they can arrive shortly if not at the time of your arrival into the state/country. Since I just got the job, the movers won't be coming until about the time that we are set to leave the states ourselves. An overseas move means that our household goods won't arrive for approximately 60 days, which means I have to pack our luggage strategically. Thankfully Chris has most cooking items already, so we'll just need sheets, blankets, toys, etc. I am going to mail at least one box of toys/books for the kiddos so at least they'll have something to do. So much to do, so much to do.
The dog is a whole other source of stress. We've gone back and forth about what to do with her. We want with us, but the question is how we will get her there. We can't ship her until the temperature falls below 85 degrees the entire length of the trip. This means we most likely won't be shipping her until September. Another problem!! Yippee!
Add to that problem--our car. Again, it takes 60 days to get our stuff, which means 60 days without our car. The house we selected is about 6 traffic lights from base-too far to walk. I guess we'll be riding in a taxi for a while.
Good byes. Don't get me started. I want to give those that need it as much notice as we can. Therefore, I felt it essential for us to call our daycare gal tonight. I have been dreading this call. I could go on and on about this lady. We love her and her husband so much. They both love our children like their own and our kids feel the same about them. The thought of this relationship ending is heartbreaking. Again, I've been crying off and on all day, so I asked Chris to make the call. He wasn't so sure that he'd convey the appreciation that I would, but I think he did well. He even got choked up. I hate good byes. It is this reason alone, that I am not cut out to be a military wife. I do not do them well. In fact, I avoid them whenever possible.
I know in time it will all fall into place. It is my obsessive compulsiveness that is getting the best of me. I need to relax and think about what is to come--traveling, life as a family and once again, waking up everyday with my husband by my side.

i didn't even post about our korean dinner experience. ugh. perhaps tomorrow. it is nearly 11 and i am tired. too much crying.