We just had some mind-numbing news...the call to duty has been made and Chris answered. I know, what a dumbass. Everyone knows you don't pick up the phone. However, he did, and now we are about to enter different kinds of hell. Chris will be deploying to some godforsaken place and I will be entering the hell of single motherhood. Although I constantly say during my week or two week stints that Claire is great, I have never done the single parenthood thing for a longer period of time or when I was pregnant. I am certain that God will safely return Chris to us, but I only hope that both Claire and I are here to greet him upon his arrival. Who knows!! I could reach my boiling point during one of her fits of independence, which are occuring more and more as of late or she could do me in when I'm too tired to get off my fat butt to play. Either way, 6 months of togetherness could be tough. My greatest fear is that I won't be able to pick up Claire in my later stages of pregnancy. I guess at that point I will be making the plea to my semi-retired Daddy to come for an extended visit, although I am not sure how that will work with seeding. I'm sure Chris has other fears--missing out on 6 months of his daughter's life, missing holidays, missing trips, not knowing if he'll return in time for his second child's birth, missing the entire pregnancy, the fear for his life/safety, missing his wife and life of normalcy. He has already expressed concern about his fantasy football league. I offered to take it over, knowing full well that I couldn't do any worse than he is at the present time, but he declined my offer. I hope to win that battle. I'd love to finish at least 2nd to last--just ahead of Phil. Regardless of my fears, I know we'll all be fine. My family has already expressed their support and offered visits. Our friends have been great too, offering babysitting, birthing coach, overnights, dinners, etc. We are lucky to have such awesome people in our lives. In the meantime I will plot a way to keep Chris home--perhaps one quick blow to his knee with a bat will do the trick?? Remind me of this post when I tell you we are considering staying in the military.
You wanted it, you asked for it, so here it is. A post. Hopefully this post will satisfy all your desires. I am not writing about the apple of my eye, Claire, but of the other apple of my eye--reality tv. I love it! Right now I am getting my fill of Big Brother. I have even lured Chris into my dark place. He mostly watched last season because Dick was such a jerk, but Chris is hooked. He's a dedicated viewer once again this season. Sadly, he was a fan of Matty who was kicked off a few weeks ago. I don't think I have a favorite. I find them all to be so obnoxious, yet I watch. Go figure. I obviously need some more excitement in my life. Girls who wear butt showing shorts, screaming matches, verbal abuse, crazy eyes, back stabbing, boys running around in their colored tighty whiteys (if tighty whiteys are colored, are they still called tighty whiteys?)---all in one episode! It is a gold mine. My second can't miss show is Housewives of Orange County or New York City. I really
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Love ya,
Jessica AKA Michelle
Jessica
As for scrapbooking, I apologize for not getting back to you sooner. I was trying to get things in order so that we could come but things are just not 100% under control so I can't make plans more than a day in advance. If you are willing, we could move the party to my mom's house (on the cape) the following weekend since I am still sitting for them for a week even if Josh is still having issues. There is plenty of room and plenty of kids for Claire to play with. Give it some thought.
I think the Michelle thing is all in the mouth area - maybe the smile?? You should do one of your "looks like" meter things Kara....ha ha.
Take care and I'll be here if you need me.
Nicole
Lisa
Lisa, that would be great. I think I am going to go on leave mid-May even if I don't actually have the kiddo yet. I think Mom is coming right away and Jessica mentioned being here too. It would be fun. Claire would love the extra attention. Too bad Ava isn't under 2, so she could finally have her plane ride--for free!